Friday, February 05, 2016

I suppose this will be funny one day

....or not. Probably not.

If you are getting email from me, it isn't from me. Bing received email yesterday from me, except it wasn't me. So, for now...I'm not sending out anything.

Received a virtual bouquet of flowers (forget me nots....ICK)....with a snide little note about cancer.

Have been signed up for magazines that I did not order. Magazines about cancer. Also, strangely, one about organic farming.

The blog seems better except that I seem to have no control over comments. But, just writing on it doesn't feel safe anymore. It feels....fingered.

We are keeping a sharp eye on everything. Bank accounts. All social media. I let Bing do all the talking with our techie nerd guys because I just get so creeped out if I hear too much.

I am spending my Winter days watching good movies, reading good books and writing copiously in notebooks and going in for last checkups. If I pass the final body scan in two weeks, I will be considered cancer free. But, the cost was great and I miss working. So...volunteering. This frees me up for those afternoon naps that I still seem to need. In my blood tests, I am dangerously low on Vitamin D and magnesium. So, taking these pills that look like they should be for horses, not humans....

Binge watching The Office again.



I finished this book days ago, but am still carrying it around because I need to keep the characters close to me:





I allow myself one movie per day to watch and have caught up on so many that I wanted to see but just didn't have the time:








And looking forward to meeting up with Daryl again.....



Basically, this is the new me:

"I'm lost. I've gone to look for myself. If I should return before I get back, please ask me to wait here..."  (author unknown)

And thinking these hard thoughts:

"And yet, even as she spoke, she knew that she didn't wish to come back, not to stay, not to live. She loved the little yellow cottage more than she loved any place on earth, but she was through with it except in her memories."  Maud Hart Lovelace.

And last but not least, some food for thought for all of us:




Stay warm and safe out there.


24 comments:

Karen Peterson said...

I am so, so sorry that this has happened. I've really missed hearing from you and I just can't imagine how horribly intrusive it must feel.

Joanne Noragon said...

I cannot imagine a person so low as your stalker, and I am sorry.
A cheerful note, for me at least: a dear friend of mine has been on the journey to remission the last several months, from stage 4 lymphoma discovered accidentally. Her scan at half way said half gone (my diagnosis, but the nodes all were half or more their former size). One more round of chemo, and we intend to have excellent results, though her oncologist warns there may be more in store that she doesn't care to hear about now (she's in medicine). So, with best wishes to all of us, you take care.

Middle Girl said...

Pond scum. I probably react better to pond scum than to your scummy stalker. So horrible to feel icky in your own space/s. So sorry this has happened to you and (us).

UP news re: your health. Cheers.

Books, movies, and binge watching excellent TV shows. . . bliss.

lily cedar said...

I just finished a wonderful book. "The Humans" by Matt Haig. One line from the book reminds me of your stalker.

"I hurt and so I hurt."

Take care. Miss your writing.

Miss Healthypants said...

So sorry to hear about the invasion into your personal privacy! That really sucks. And your readers miss you.... I'm glad to hear that you are doing ok though! Take care!

Lucy Tellez said...

That is totally creepy and odd. Send emails on your behalf??? Please be safe!!! Miss Bing, please take care of her!!

sweffling said...

Don't think my comments are coming through but basically what I said was how much I sypathise and hope that all will get sorted out soon. I love your posts and they mean a lot to me.

Maria said...

My apologies to anyone who commented and did not get published. I published all of them. Only some of them showed up and several (mostly the very supportive ones or the ones who used words like "dumb ass" to describe the hacker...) were deleted by a "blog administrator" who was not me. This blog has taken a real beating and we have finally found an interesting trail....

Fiona said...

I'm appalled that you are having to go through this sweetheart, I have no words, so please accept a virtual hug (which sounds a bit lame but it's all I have right now).

Loves ya :)

lyon de clarasvals said...

Just be safe Maria. Close this one and start anew if you must.

Kate T said...

As a "lurker" who loves your writing, I'm sorry this is happening.

On another note, did you watch Jenny's Wedding yet and if so, what are your thoughts? I'll save mine until I know you've seen it!

elliesmith2006 said...

I hope you catch the SOB and can prosecute or something. I was never able to "prove" who my stalkers were and catch them in the act, although I know who it was and what they were doing. I keep the enemy close, but still catch myself looking over my shoulder.

Kass said...

I tried leaving a comment on your most recent post and I keep getting an error message. Anyway, I was going to say how glad I am that you're back and still sassy.

teeveezed said...

Someone is seriously disturbed, how awful for you all.

Sincerely hope that you are indeed cancer free.

The World According To Me said...

That's awful. Makes me mad and sad how twisted some folk are.

I'm keeping everything crossed and praying for ya that all's well with the next scan.

jane said...

Will continue checking in hoping to hear you are well, and look forward to your continued posts!

~jane

Jocelyn said...

I still miss you. Constantly.

Best hopes that the scan went well and that the Internet creeps fell into a well.

And: let's love Maude Hart Lovelace together forever.

Lulubelle B said...

to health and gladness
there's a hole where your blog was
come back maria

Mary said...

I so miss your blog...and your wonderful writings. Hope you are back soon.

elliesmith2006 said...

Miss you! Hoping you are well!!

Kat said...

i was happy to see the new post yesterday. Thought the tide had finally turned but apparently not just yet. I love your writing and truly hope this asshole does not succeed in muzzling your voice.

Kat

Eva said...

I'm commenting on this post because the last one I read on my rss-reader seems to have gone missing.
I'm so sorry you have to deal with this awful person. I hope your tech-team gets things back to normal.
I do miss hearing about you all, and hope you're all doing ok.

I suddenly realized that we've booked tickets to the US in October, when you presidentasl campaign is in full swing (fuller swing....?) and I think we must be crazy. I guess I'll need to carry a sign saying "Foreigner!" or something. :-)

Anyway, good luck getting rid of your stalker.

Unknown said...

Every time I check back and don't see a new post, I get angry all over again. Curse your stalker... I miss you and your writing Maria...I hope all is well in your little corner of the prairie.
Leslie

E said...

What everyone said above. We miss you!