Last night I was being very quiet because Bing was watching the last offering of her favorite show: House. There I sat, innocently reading my book.
During a commercial, Bing got up to sit next to me. I thought she wanted to cuddle a little bit.
"I have something to tell you!" she said.
I smiled. Waited.
"I found out today that I got another Fulbright," she said, her voice almost squeaking with excitement.
"Oh, my GOD!" I exclaimed. "That is wonderful? When? Next summer?"
"No," she said, a little nervously. "I will leave for India in January and be gone until April. Oh..wait. House is back on. I'll share more later."
I sat there stunned. IN THE WINTER? She was leaving me in the WINTER?
I don't mind spending summers alone. Like the song says, in the summertime...the livin' is easy.
But...WINTER? And what about school?
During the next commercial, she said (in what I thought was a very cavalier manner) that she would have to take a four month leave of absence from school.
"Without pay?" I gulped.
And then the commercial was over.
I was sort of shocked and sort of steaming. I was SO MAD that she picked THIS time to tell me. We kept having to stop talking so that she could watch television.
So..yes...no pay for four months. That will take a huge bite out of our income. Will have to dip into savings. And what will she do for health insurance?
India is cheap, she told me.
NO health insurance?
What about her back?
Well, she was smiling. This just gave her LOTS of incentive to work hard to get better.
In the end, I just smiled and told her to go for it.
I don't get this obsession that she has with traveling. But, it is her life and her decision.
But India is so far away and she will be gone for so long and it will be IN THE WINTER.
I finally had to have a long talk with myself in the bathtub. I've lived alone before and did just fine. A LOT of women live on their own. I will be fine.
And this is such an honor for her, it truly is. I am really proud of her.
But...god...all the way to India for FOUR months in the WINTER.