I found a series of questions on one of my internet jaunts. Thank you, Josie, for pointing me in that direction.
If you had to spend one year alone with one other person, who would you want that person to be?
Ugh. Hard. But, in the end, I would choose my child. Liv. I think that Bing and I could weather a year apart, but I might go slowly mad without Liv.
What's a question that many people are afraid to ask themselves?
Am I living a life that makes me proud? Am I standing up when I should and sitting down when I should too? It's very, very hard to do the right thing at all times and I have kept my mouth shut at too many dinners with my racist brother in law. I told myself that I was doing it to keep peace, to be kind to my sister, Patrice, who has the great misfortune to be married to him. But, I should have stood up every. single. time. Let everyone at that table know that I was not going to take this shit and neither should they.
In one word, what are you hoping for?
Peace. I want to die with peace in my heart.
In one word, what's your biggest concern at the moment?
I wish I could say world peace or some such thing, but I am remarkably human. My biggest concern is always having enough money at the end of my life to not burden my family, to be able to die with dignity. I have had this terrible fear of being a bag lady for most of my life.
What's something you wish you saw more of?
Kindness. It seems that the older I get, the more I see unkindness.
What's something that many people fear that doesn't scare you at all?
Ghosts. We have a house ghost and I have never been truly afraid. Startled, yes. Afraid, no.
What item do you most often misplace?
My watch. I have found it in the fridge before. No lie.
Life is wasted without ?
Sounds cheesy, but it's true. Love. And being loved.
What makes you different?
I tend to feel things at a heightened level. I would never admit this on most days because I have never been accused of being too sensitive. But, I have a sort of gift of being able to connect.... to join myself..... to things and feel them. Hard to explain. Once when I was little, I was sitting outside in the back yard weeping because the fireflies were so beautiful. It was like I couldn't stand it or something. My mother came outside to see what the matter was. When I told her, she shook her head, rolled her eyes and said, "Maria, they are BUGS" and went into the house. Just the other day, I finished a book called Carry The One that touched me deeply. I was sitting on the sofa, thought I was alone. I hugged the book and began to cry. I couldn't stand to let the characters go. Bing came in, immediately sat next to me and asked what I was crying about. I told her that I just loved this book so much. She sort of patted me and got up, totally not getting me. Does this make sense?
What's something that you enjoy making or building from scratch?
Well, I am not a craft person. But, I am a passable baker. When Liv was little, we never made anything from a box, such as brownies or cakes. Always from scratch and there was something very satisfying about measuring ingredients and seeing them come together successfully. Plus, by the time she was 4, Liv understood the concept of measuring. She knew a quarter cup was small, a half cup bigger and a cup even more so.
If you could add an extra hour to your day, how would you spend it?
Easy. Sleep. I never get enough sleep. When that alarm goes off in the morning, I just want to groan and roll over, slap it off, go back to sleep.
What do you wish you did more of on a regular basis?
Walk the dog. I tend to see it as a chore. But my best blogs come out of long, lingering walks with Socks. I walk and think about things. Problem solve. Let nature seep into my bones a bit.
In what way are you a survivor?
I've survived some pretty scary health issues. I surprised myself by being a fighter. Not just a little, but a full fledged warrior.
What's the one piece of advice you would give to a teenager?
This too shall pass. Not having that cute guy ask you to prom? This is MINOR, cookie. Honest.
Ok...tackle more later.
And I'd be curious to see how you would answer these questions.