Thursday, December 03, 2009

I'm right here.

Bing,
I know. I know.

I'm trying. I'm sorry. I'm such an ass.

This aloof woman living in the house with you? I don't like her either.

I'm here. I'm right here. I swear it. Inside.

Last night when you tried to kiss me and I said no, could you please just leave me alone?

Well, I don't know her. I mean, I heard her voice and recognized it as mine but I swear that I was in there screaming for you except it came out all wrong.

Something in me just gets lost sometimes and I need to find some sort of marker to lead me back.

Got any bread crumbs?

So, I'm asking you, nicely, prettily, hoarsely and with much hope and love:

Will you try again? Or shall I? Because I miss you so much and I am so sorry.



Love always...for twenty seven moons. Or maybe twenty eight.

Me

19 comments:

iamheatherjo said...

Dear Maria,

Please kiss Bing.

Much love,
Heather

Fiona said...

I believe in the love you two share....you'll get back 'there' and Bing will be waiting....I just know this.

Away, avast dark mood !

The Girl from Lokhandwala said...

A big hug to you, Maria. Hope writing it out made you feel better.

heartinsanfrancisco said...

That damn mercury in retrograde again.

Annemarie of Holland said...

Put this in print and leave it on her pillow. She'll try again.

Rose Vanden Eynden said...

Love that song. So pretty in so many ways.

But what you're going through doesn't sound pretty. I hope it all works out soon. Sending you warm, positive thoughts.

kootnygirl said...

I believe you will find your way out of whatever morass you are tangled in right now. And I believe that Bing will be there for you when you do.

Sending positive thoughts and warm wishes that it all happens soon.

e said...

My advice: don't turn it into a standoff. It's almost never worth it. So very much easier to say, I'm sorry, and mean it sincerely.

... wish my girlfriend would read this... brat.

(((hugs)))

jelly said...

i am sure the two of you will find your way back.

i have moments of 'aloofness' as well...i don't want to be bothered, or i want to be alone inside of my head.

i get it.

you'll be okay.

Avril Fleur said...

I have always loved that song. I've never seen the video. It was nice, but somehow the video I envisioned in my head was much better.

I have a feeling that Bing knows you well enough by now to know that wasn't really you speaking. But I agree with iamheatherjo. Kiss Bing. Sometimes it's nice when the other person initiates the affection.

Jean said...

Isn't the mind a strange thing?

It sounds like that old cliche' - it's not you, it's me....

Kiss her soundly.

Miss Healthypants said...

Lovely...Bing would be crazy not to quickly welcome you back into her arms. :)

trinity2 said...

Love the song! She'd be crazy not to come running back, lady!

KMae said...

Tell her you think you have multiple personalities, but you're afraid to go to the shrink to find out because you're not up to opening yet another can of worms you'll both have to deal with. But somebody would like very much to kiss her now. You could even name your moods. Like Prudence & Jezabelle.

dive said...

Stop talking, just get over there and kiss her. Hard, deep and frequently.

The Crow said...

Aw, this sucks!

Hoping everything works out well for you two, I'm sending virtual hugs to you both.

:)

Camlin said...

sending positive vibes!

thenextchapt said...

I'm sure she knows you're there.

She'll be waiting for you when you get back.

the only daughter said...

Keeping you both in my heart and positive energy flow.

Joy.
Peace.